Life is not a straight line. It's a downpour of gifts, please – hold out your hand

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Thank you for being here. I'm so glad you're here.

Friday, May 29, 2009

A Few New Paintings

"Talent is not a gift given to only a few; it is universal. Talent comes out of openness, integrity, simplicity, and the courage to feel and take risks."
Michell Cassou
"Out beyond ideas of wrong doing and right doing
there is a field.
I'll meet you there." Rumi
I am so grateful that I have stumbled upon something that gives me so much joy. When the girls go off to school and I have a few hours to myself to paint, I am seriously giddy and so very grateful. This kind of giddy fun is such a welcome thing in my life. Our house is quickly becoming a little saturated with my paintings, fortunately the rest of the family seems to enjoy them too. :)


Give your dreams a whirl

Dream Big

Look With Your Heart


Precious You



Thursday, May 28, 2009

Blissed Out

For instant inspiration check this out:

http://www.superherodesigns.com/journal/archives/001678.html Be sure to watch the whole video, so sweet.


More paintings to share soon! I'm back in the flow and all blissed out here. Tonight was supposed to be an early-to-bed night after way too many late ones but got caught up in paint instead-such a good good thing. :)

Monday, May 25, 2009

Sweetness


This sweet little one has blessed us with his/her presence the last few days (and my husband happened to catch some really great shots!) There is something about hummingbirds--i just love them.


Just kicking back here on this Memorial Day, enjoying the just-right temperature and gorgeous sunshine. Feeling relaxed, unhurried and good. Not a lot of painting happening here these last several days but I feel another surge coming. Stay tuned.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Following Our Bliss

"I know that once I stopped trying to fit what I wanted to do into some kind of real-world form, what I wanted to do sprouted urgent feathers and took flight. Desire will take you beyond every limitation." Tama Kieves, author of This Time I Dance

My greatest challenge lately has been to trust that what moves me, inspires me, quickens my pulse and takes me to an altered, beautiful state, is what I must continue to follow. While part of me is blissfully mixing colors and allowing images to appear, another part of me is nagging and tugging, reminding me of all I "should" be doing--mopping the floors, doing the laundry, grocery shopping, looking for a "real" job.

While I try to simply observe these annoying intruders, sometimes it just gets too intense and I start to doubt that"following my bliss" can ever really lead me somewhere beyond where I already am. I wonder if I should just start being "realistic" and find a job that brings in a second income. When my husband asks me what I've been doing all day, it can be hard to justify that I've been painting or writing, especially if dinner is not on the table and the refrigerator is empty.

To trust that our greatest desires will take us beyond limitations takes an enormous amount of commitment to ourselves and our dreams. We are taught to be "realistic" to make the "safe" choices, choices that will ensure stability and security. Rarely have I been around people that tell me to go where the energy of passion is, to stay true to myself at all costs, to trust that this intense desire will not only leave me safe and secure, but alive and passionate and free.

I'm all about passion and freedom. I am committed to following the flow of my desires, the energy of my passions--I know that it is only when I'm doing this that I feel safe and secure. I must continue to trust that "the way" or "the form" will show itself when it's ready.

And I'm all about encouraging others to stick to their unique path, to trust their inner wisdom--to choose passion and inspiration over what is safe and secure. We must continue to remind each other to stay true, that it is worth it, that following our bliss is the path of least resistance and will lead us to beauty and love and openness and freedom. It will move us beyond every limitation. We will sprout wings. We will take flight--safely and securely.

Friday, May 22, 2009

I Am Afraid Of The Daylight, by Rumi
All these miracles are about to drive me crazy:
my elbows, my ears, my nose, my wife's nagging,
and the sweet darkness of the night, and this blanket existence
around my soul,
and my heart connected to the pulse of
every creature.
I am afraid of the daylight.
Yesterday God was
everywhere
throwing
bliss
balls, planets, and
their kin.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

New Painting

A funny perspective, non-cropped version of a new painting. I'll figure this photo-editing stuff out soon enough--for now, this is what I've got. :)



Friday, May 15, 2009

On the Brink

I am a person who constantly desires (relentlessly and intensely) to be more aligned with spirit; to understand everything I can about life and people and love and inspiration. I've always been this way. When I was just a little child, around three, my mom said I would take walks by myself; out of the driveway, onto the sidewalk, down the hill, until my pigtails would disappear (the world was a different place then). I believe I walked because I loved to be outdoors and I loved to be alone and quiet--I believe this was my way of aligning with spirit.

This is how I've always been. If I can walk a few steps in nature, feel the fresh air, look at the flowers and trees, I typically breathe more deeply, and quickly feel centered and connected. Since I was able to write, I've written for greater understanding. For as long as I can remember, I've read anything and everything to do with self-growth and spirituality.

My intention in the last few years has been to balance this intense desire for connectedness with being present with whatever IS. My tendency has been to reach for, to long for, to lean toward and away from wherever I currently am . Though I've wanted so much to be peaceful and inspired and free and connected, I've tended to be unsettled and anxious and impatient.

I've grown to believe that we can be fully present in our lives and fully present with our desires--at the same time. I've always thought that if I didn't reach for, I'd never have. What I'm realizing now is that I already have, and that connectedness comes in this very moment. Through full presence, the way to manifest our dreams becomes clearer and clearer.

I've recently discovered the teachings of Abraham and am totally intrigued by the wisdom of these teachings. Right now I'm reading a book called Ask and it is Given, The Teachings of Abraham, by Esther and Jerry Hicks. Here is a passage I just came across:

"It is our desire that you become one who is happy with that which you are and with that which you have--while at the same time being eager for more. That is the optimal creative vantage point: To stand on the brink of what is coming, feeling eager, optimistic anticipation--with no feeling of impatience, doubt or unworthiness hindering the receiving of it--that is the Science of Deliberate Creation at its best."

So, here's to standing on the brink of all that is coming--with eagerness, optimism and anticipation. And how about a full dose of Absolute Trust in what is now and what absolutely can be.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Quiet

Both my girls are at school this morning so it's just me and the quiet--very soothing. It's a gray day, a good one to cozy up inside with coffee, writing and painting. I am so lucky to have this time to create. I don't take it for granted.

Quiet rain
quiet flickering candle
quiet cup of coffee
quiet space between thoughts
quietly turn-
ing toward the current
Downstream, flow-
ing
Quietly
it takes
me
where i must go
where I've already been
where I already am
here.
now.
downstream
I flow

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Happy Mother's Day, Mom

Happy Mother's Day, Mom. I love you so much and wish I could be there to give you a big hug and a big bouquet of flowers...not that either of those things would come close to expressing my gratitude for all you've done for me and all that you've given of yourself.

Thank you, sweet Mom.

Thursday, May 7, 2009

With Passion, by Rumi

With Passion
by Rumi

With passion pray. With
passion work. With passion make love.
With passion eat and drink and dance and play.
Why look like a dead fish
in the ocean
of God

I'm becoming more and more aware of the beauty that surrounds. In every moment, in every flower and tree, in the blue of the sky or the gray of the clouds, in the scent of my girls' sweet little cheeks. We don't need to look far to find it--we don't need to look at all. We just need to pause and breathe it all in--with passion.

What a beautiful thing.

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

New Paintings

Below are a few new paintings. I have another that I just finished but it's too big to scan--I'll have to figure that out because I'm having fun doing bigger and bigger!
The first one reads, look with your heart




Touched By the Rain

She lifts
her smiling face
to the rain
allows
it to sprinkle
her eyes, her cheeks
her open mouth

allows it to fill
her with something
that feels a little
like bliss

The above words were floating through my mind while I took my early morning walk this morning. Rather than resisting the rain, which might be my conditioned way of responding to getting drenched, I became very present with it. I stopped walking and just stood still in the open field--what a simple and beautiful moment.

There are so many little moments like this in our days. We simply need to slow down, get out of our own way and allow ourselves to truly experience them.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

Awakening

This morning
I walk the well-worn
path, out of bed
into the kitchen
where the scent
of coffee and little girl giggles
call
As I pour that first cup
and bend down to them
my heart whispers
this is it
this is it

Friday, May 1, 2009

Below is a poem I just wrote. Inspired by my new, beautiful friend, Erika, and my sweet daughter, Lily.

For a moment today
I forgot
all that "needed" improving.

The growing pile of laundry
the nagging "to do" list

I forgot to care
whether I was on the right path
which direction I should go
or how I would get there

I simply pressed pause
and watched your tiny sunlit hands
pluck one dandelion
after another
until you had a perfect
sweet bouquet

then you skipped down the hill
while the angels sang
and my heart followed you
home


MY PAINTINGS

***The below paintings of women in dresses were inspired by artist Kelly Rae Roberts. http://www.kellyraeroberts.com/ She (along with the other women noted below) have been a great source of inspiration for me. I am very thankful to them all.

You can visit my little online store by following this link-www.juliafeh.etsy.com


Sisters




An Ordinary Day





A New Season





Wide Open




















Give Your Dreams A Whirl

Look With Your Heart


Precious You










Sister you are so loved





Love is all there is






Look with your heart



Inspired by the work of Jane Evershed: www.evershed.com

Embrace possibility

Create with abandon



Boundless