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Friday, June 4, 2010

fearLESS Friday!


"Fear is only as deep as the mind allows"   Dostoyevsky


"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."    Marianne Williamson






It's 4:45 in the morning and it's been raining, pouring, really,   all.   night.   long.  In fact, it's been raining pretty nonstop for weeks and months.  I'm pretty sure the sky forgot how to stop.  The birds are chirping and singing like crazy.  Their sweet tweeting, mixed with the rain-sound, is soothing and lovely. 

I have an idea.  or maybe i should say an idea has me.  I woke up at 4:00 a.m with it and it wouldn't let me go back to sleep.  I rolled over a few times, pulled the covers up a little higher, tried to let the rain soothe me back to sleep.  But, instead, my heart started beating a little faster, i couldn't lie still, and, after a few dozen breaths, i found my body practical leaping out of bed. 

So, because today just happens to be Friday, and because i'm feeling like feeling the fear and doing it anyway, and because i know each step leads to the next and the next, and because i know i don't have to know the "hows" ahead of time, and am trusting that that part will take care of itself, and because i know the power of creating out loud--today, i will begin.  This is my baby step. 

Here's the idea: 

Every Friday (or sometime during the week) i will, consciously and with intention, do something that scares me/challenges me/takes me out of my comfort zone. 

It can be something tiny or big.  Something i've been afraid of forever and have put off doing.  It can be as simple as making contact with someone i haven't made contact with for a while (due to some small or big fear).  Or saying i'm sorry.  Or, i love you.  It can be taking a tiny little baby step in the direction of what moves/inspires/excites me.  Or pausing long enough to hear those whispers that i've been pretending i don't hear.  Or slowing down long enough to meditate.  Or stepping out the door for a run.  It could be quieting my voice and listening instead.  It could be posting or submitting that painting or photograph or poem (or comment!)  :)  that's collecting dust, even if i don't think it's "good."  Or writing or speaking those words that are whispering or screaming to be heard.  It can be doing something completely out of the ordinary, something out of my comfort zone, just to stir & rattle & shake things up a bit. 


FEAR:

F--FALSE
E--EVIDENCE
A--APPEARING
R--REAL   


And i'll come here, to this space, and tell you about it. 

I would love for you to join me. 
And write about it in the comment section. 

In writing about it, you claim it & celebrate it & release it & strengthen your courage & resolve. And in doing all of that, you help others to claim & celebrate & release & strengthen their courage & resolve. 

And beautiful lovely things begin to happen. 

"As we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." Marianne Williamson

It would be so much fun to let our lights shine together.  To be liberated from our fear.
Don't you think?


Here are some questions I'll be asking myself along the way:


What would i do if i couldn't screw up?
What would i do if i/it didn't have to be good?
What would i do if i weren't worried about what others would think?
What would i do if i weren't afraid?
What would i do if i were not trying to impress anybody with the result?
What would i do if i didn't have to know what comes next?
What would i do if i were not afraid to be free?
What would i do if i couldn't fail?


*I'm sure, as i begin this, that there will be reasons i can't always post on Friday (sick kids, travel, unexpected somethings) but i'm going to be soft and compassionate with myself and do the best i can to show up for me.  And for you.


The moment one definitely commits oneself, then Providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it. Begin it now.” - Goethe

9 comments :

  1. Hi Julia,
    In my experience,giving myself permission to shine is far easier than allowing myself to be paralysed by fear. Sometimes, I forget and then I remember, and the world becomes a much friendlier place to live. A Course in Miracles says that the only thing missing in any situation is what we are not giving it. I agree with it's teachings wholeheartedly.
    Keep sharing and shining Julia and
    let love light the way. We are making the journey home .. together.

    Love Nige:-)

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  2. This is just the best post ever Julia. I am going to be Friday Fearless too. I LOVE that! You are so inspiring. love louise

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  3. Hi Julia, I found your blog through flying lessons but have been behind on introducing myself. I really enjoy your work and I love this Fearless Friday idea. It does feel amazing to do the things that scare us, thanks for the inspiration!

    ♥Jenny

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  4. Ok, I'm N ... another FLY N friend

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  5. Hi Julia! GREAT idea / post / concept! I am so in! I am a fellow Flying Lessons mate. This lovely community has given me a lot of courage and inspiration to keep moving forward on my creative path. Enjoying your thoughts in this post. Blessings, Valerie

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  6. Love this idea and I have decided to start dancing and running again because this is what helps me to leave less room for fear (and I have recently written about it my blog).

    Love

    Bea

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  7. What a great idea Julia....I'm over here from flying lessons....I need some fear"less" time :)

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  8. Very cool. You are doing it Julia.

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  9. Came across your art as I was preparing for Fearless Friday posts for FB today. (https://www.facebook.com/eaglespiritjourneys) Shared your beautiful painting with credits for your art and a link to your blog page. So happy to share wonderful work by wonderful people like yourself who have the courage to be all that they are!! <3
    Many blessings, EagleSpirit (www.eaglespiritjourneys.com)

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