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Monday, June 28, 2010

River Voice

We're back from our camping/road/wedding trip! And i'm feeling slightly overwhelmed & scattered.  The kids are out of school for the summer, which means new schedules & very little time to do all that i want/need to do.  I'm sure i'll find a rhythm here somewhere but for now i'm being tossed all over the place.

Here are a few of the many things on my "to do" list:  (Not necessarily in this order)

1)  Unpack   
2)  Do excessive amounts of laundry
3)  Respond to emails 
4)  Catch up on the online class i'm taking with Kelly Rae Roberts that has been amazing in so many ways but has my head spinning with the abundance of info./ possibilities that have been presented.
5)  Vacuum the house
6)  Dust the house 
7)  Call carpet people  (it's been way too long since our carpets have been cleaned).  
8)  Book reservation home to Vermont for my sister's wedding in September.  Order shoes/dress.
9)  Make a very important decision
10) Catch up with friends & family
11) Buy groceries (Our refrigerator is pathetically empty.)
12) Write on blog
13) Make pendants
14) Paint
15) Spend quality time with kids
16) Exercise
17) Lose ten pounds


I had a three hour window of time this afternoon while my girls were at their summer camp, and, although there were many persistent voices barking out orders to "get something done," there was another one (that i had to slow way down to hear) that told me to go sit by the river instead.

I'm happy to say the river voice won & i spent the full three hours reading/watching the moving water/taking deep breaths/feeling the sunshine & wind. 

So even though i didn't check a single thing off my list, i feel a little saner, a little less scattered--a little more in tune with me.  And the barking has quieted down and the to do list seems less urgent & i am clearer on this very important decision i need to make...more on that later. 

Thank you river voice.

It's good to be back.

5 comments :

  1. for some of us, embracing stillness is one of the most difficult things. certainly when there's a To Do list beckoning.

    wonderful choice. if we just realised that being still IS doing something, something for our souls.

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  2. Isn't it beautiful how you just won't allow yourself to stay in places of suffering, how you heed the call to go to the river? I believe this will change the world, when we really listen to our desires apart from what we think we should do, and the quality of our life/world will change in a mere moment. Thanks for sharing.

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  3. Julia I LOVE how you listened to your self and let go or the endless to do list. That list is always out there, looming. But sitting by the river? That is a moment worth taking. I'm so happy I read this- it is a great reminder for me to keep living even when there is a long list of things I "should" be doing.

    Sounds like you had a good trip :)

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  4. i'm so glad the river had the loudest voice today! :)

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  5. I always put some easy to accomplish things on my list so I feel good that I actually did something - but "lose 10 pounds" - is soooo funny! I'd be chasing the river voice too.

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♥ Julia