Enough

She thought
she needed to find it
fix it
grasp it
reclaim it
become it
prove it
get to the root of it
try harder

She thought
if she did
enough
created enough
found enough
lost enough

tried harder

that maybe she'd 
be enough
finally
and could lay down
the mountain
she'd been carrying
for a thousand years

She didn't know then
what she knows
now
that if she paused
and asked
and listened

the moment's soft whisper
would turn her toward
everything
she'd always wanted
everything
she's always been
all of it there
waiting
quietly
inside