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Friday, December 31, 2010

Ready for New

Today my family and I will head
to the Oregon coast for a little New Year's celebration.  The sun is supposed to shine and the ocean promises to show off its beauty.

I am eager to reflect on 2010 (wow, has it been a wild/transformative one) and welcome in 2011.  Next week the little ones head back to school so I will have a little more time on my hands.  As sweet as it's been to have all of this family togetherness, it will be good to have some open space.  And's always nice (and necessary) to have moments of that too.  

One question I will be asking myself in the upcoming days is what do you really really really want?  A good question, I think.  And rather than push for answers, I'll open & open & allow them to surface in their own time.

Last year my one little word was EASE, which is really kind-of funny.  I think a better word (especially at the beginning of 2010) would have been grueling or relentless.  But really, looking back now, I think the grueling, relentless parts have paved the way for ease-in a really really beautiful kind of way.

I have a few words in mind for 2011--more later on that.

I have one quick (feel the fear but do it anyway) thing to share on this very very early in the morning fearLESS Friday...  

This past Tuesday morning I got online, went straight to the Eugene Marathon website and (with a sense of great urgency) signed myself up for a half marathon run slow jog!  I decided to just do it before my mind had a chance to tell me all the reasons I shouldn't.  Fortunately, it's not until May so I have plenty of time to get this very under-exercised/under-nurtured body into some semblance of shape.  It's going to feel good good good! to have a physical goal.  My body is very much wanting/needing/craving/begging for some attention.

For now I'll leave you with some words from Hafiz.

I wish each of you beauties a very very happy New Year.  I hope 2011 is a year of opening opening your heart and giving yourself & the world all your beauty.  

By Hafiz

Did the rose
Ever open its heart
And give to the world
All its
It felt the encouragement of light
Against its
We all remain


  1. Oh Julia! Shivers down my whole body...

    I am also doing a half marathon slow jog in February if all goes according to plan! Good for you for signing up. When I meet my body's need for exercise and attention, I am rewarded with so much more energy, clarity and peace.

    I adore the Hafiz poem you wrote - and that photo - it looks like the ocean is falling off the earth! Amazing.

    I didn't have a word for 2010 and I'm not sure whether I'll manage to get one for 2011, but I'm pondering away...

    MUCH love xxxxxxx

  2. hi julia! thank you for stopping by my blog. i did get the message, thank you. xoxo

  3. Very fearless to sign up for the marathon! Congratulations. Hope you have a wonderful celebration. I am ready for the new too. I don't think I've ever felt the change of the year so strongly as this new year. Love the poem.

  4. Yay Julia! I've recently started running, too. I'm training for the Corvallis half marathon in April, so if you ever want to go for a run, email me! And I am slow and NON-competitive. ;)

  5. Wow- you are so brave and awesome. I am totally inspired by you. I laughed out loud with your comment about how your word could have been relentless or grueling. hahaha

  6. Congratulations on making the commitment to yourself - and to the courage it takes to make it public.

    Also, I'm with Lori on the laughter... my word for 2010 was NOURISH. Looking back, perhaps it should have been fear, patience, or surrender. Mostly surrender. But we got through it, with love and gratitude, so that's something big.


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♥ Julia