Friday, June 3, 2011
Hidden in the Ground
"Patience is a hard discipline. It is not just waiting until something happens over which we have no control: the arrival of the bus, the end of the rain, the return of a friend, the resolution of a conflict. Patience is not waiting passively until someone else does something. Patience asks us to live the moment to the fullest, to be completely present to the moment, to taste the here and now, to be where we are. When we are impatient, we try to get away from where we are. We behave as if the real thing will happen tomorrow, later, and somewhere else. Let's be patient and trust that the treasure we look for is hidden in the ground on which we stand." Henri Nouwen
When I came across the above words, I breathed a huge sigh of relief. These words helped me to remember what seems to be very easy to forget. They helped me to remember to stay where I am, to let go of thoughts that tell me something else should be happening, to let go of thoughts that insist that I should be somewhere I'm not, that I should be more than I am. Or maybe that they should be more.
I have a mentor that has a phrase she says a lot--
Stop shoulding on yourself.
Don't you just love that? What if we let go of the shoulds? What if we chose to eliminate the 'S" word from our vocabulary? Like, completely stopped using it and thinking it all together. I think there would be some serious relief. I think wide open space would be created for sacred things to enter. Sacred things. Like taking conscious, deep breaths, like noticing the way the the sunshine feels on your face, like truly Seeing the tiny buds and blooming flowers or the look in your little one's eyes.
There is this beautiful, breathing place we can access when we slow way down, when we stop shoulding on ourselves...all the wisdom and softness and peace in the world rests Here.
I am learning that when I stop the shoulds and quiet down and ask and wait with trust and patience, quiet little sweet answers come through, all on their very own--no pushing or trying to figure out or forcing or feelings of urgency necessary. Just quiet little beams of light that feel soft and right. And, guess what? These little beams of light come through in the moment, in the here and now--not tomorrow or later. When we drop it all and decide to be where we are, to truly be HERE, tasting and listening and breathing it all in---we find treasures beyond what we could ever think up or imagine.
And they're all right here, hidden in the ground in which we stand.
fearLESS Friday stretch:
Start noticing all the times you should on yourself. Notice how it feels, what sensations do you feel in your body when you think you (or they) should? Each time you feel a should, pause & drop into the space of NOW...tune IN to the moment, and, rather than forcing a decision or shoulding on yourself, ask for guidance. And then open & listen with patience and trust...and then watch the treasures come.