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Friday, July 15, 2011

Day 2, Getting Conscious

"I want to be the best that I can be. I want to do and have and live in a way that is in harmony with my idea of the greatest goodness. I want to harmonize physically here in this body with that which I believe to be the best, or the good way of life. If you will make those statements, and then do not take action unless you feel good, you will always be moving upon the path in harmony with your idea of that which is good."  Esther Hicks

I'm doing one of those big, long hesitant pauses right now, not sure where to begin.  I write a few words, I delete, my thoughts race all over the place. I feel overwhelmed. I have so much to share about all of this body stuff. I'm struggling a bit with where to focus.  

But as I take a deep breath, I know I only need to focus on one thing at a time.

I want to tell you about Day 1 of "Learning to Love this Body of Mine."  After writing my post yesterday morning, fear really wanted to take over.  I started to wonder what is it I'm really doing here, shouldn't I have more of a focus, what if I disappoint myself/others... blah, blah, blah.  

But in between all of this fear/mind stuff, I kept consciously slowing myself down. I did things that I knew would ground me.  I took a couple of really nice walks, I did yoga outside on my back deck, I sat quietly and listened to the birds for a while. I ate an apple.  

By the way, it's been a long time since I've gotten myself on the yoga mat.  For some reason, even though I know how nourishing it is for my body, I continually resist it.  But yesterday I showed up and it felt so good.  And apples...well, it's funny--it's not that I don't like apples, I just, for some reason, hardly ever eat them.  But yesterday when I was a little bit hungry, I paused and asked my body what it wanted, it immediately said it wanted an apple.  I was totally surprised but I listened and it felt like just what my body needed. My point in telling you this is that I know I wouldn't have done yoga or eaten that apple if I hadn't taken a moment to pause and listen to what my body needed.  

I'm amazed at one happens when I slow down and listen.

As my mind quieted, sweet, supportive voices rose to the surface...they said things like, this is for you, you're doing this for your own healing, all you need to do is slow down and tune IN and ask yourself what would really make you feel good (not just in the moment but in the long term).  The process here is the same as it is for anything else, this is about self love (certainly not about bossing yourself arrive or depriving yourself).

Everything is connected and it seems the process is always about slowing down and turning inward.  This isn't about losing weight and thinking that's going to solve or save anything. This isn't about fixing what's broken. This is about me no longer depriving myself of that which serves my highest good.  

I know that when I am in a state of appreciation, when I focus on the good and the gifts, more good and gifts come.  When I slow down and thank my body for all the moment-to-moment miracles it performs, I am in awe.  I know that when I am in awe and in a a state of appreciation for my body, I want to do good for it...I want to nourish it with healthy food, I want to give it plenty of water, I want to move it and give it fresh air. I want to show it LOVE.  

This is where I am right some moments, I feel overwhelmed & wobbly, in others I'm doing my best to consciously slow down & ask and listen. It's such a comfort to know I'm not alone in any of this.  Thank you for being here.

I want to leave you with a few words from Don Miguel Ruiz...Happy weekend, dear readers.

"Today is a new day, a new beginning for you to give gratitude to your physical body for everything it does for you.  When you learn to love your physical body, every activity can become a ritual of gratitude where you fully express the joy to be alive.  Every time you wash your body can be a prayer of gratitude.  Every time you eat can be more than a prayer; it can be a celebration of life because you are giving food to God so that life can keep going.  Beginning today, you can change your relationship with your physical body, and your whole life will change."


  1. Lovely post, Julia <3 I too find that slowing down solves so many problems. When I start thinking negatively or feel myself caught up in a swirl of negative emotions the solution is almost always finding the time to just be with it and question it. Question where those beliefs are coming from and then listed to the voice of my true self who knows that they're wrong. That I AM beautiful/strong/able etc. Sometimes it just takes longer to get to that point. Here's to slow living!
    Lots of love,

  2. I really love this post, it's especially close to my heart right now. I'm 32 weeks pregnant and my body is really telling me to slow down and take it eeeeasy, yet I'm resisting years of 'I need to do this, I need to do that, I have to please everyone else', which has for so long, had me pushing myself.
    So thank you for this blog post and the reminder that listening and tuning into my body is an act of love and wisdom and connection x

  3. Julia, i'm so grateful that you're doing this and that you're sharing it with us all! I, too, love yoga and have this strange resistance to it. Thank you for your courage in sharing, you're helping us more than you know!

  4. Beautiful, my friend. I love the softness. It feels like sure footsteps toward love, acceptance and flow.

    Right there with you, and feeling so grateful for your words and for the beautiful experience of sharing this.

  5. Grace, Chrissy, Belle, Brooke...thank you so much for coming here and leaving your words--it's such a beautiful thing to be in such good company.

    Here's to slowing down and listening IN first.

    With love,



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