I can't quite convey to you, you who is reading this, how very much I've needed this time of reconnecting with me. It's long over-due and just the right time and deeply appreciated.
The truth is
I've been running at such a pace, packing and unpacking and packing again, mothering & mothering more, going and coming and going again, that I've forgotten to take deep breaths and tune in to Me.
The truth is, over the last several days, I've forgotten to ask my body what it wants and needs.
The truth is that lately I've allowed my mind to have a field day with doubt and worry, expectations, lack...
The truth is I've been forgetting to say thank you for what I have and for all the good that is happening and have been focusing on what I don't yet have, what isn't happening
The truth is that often I get so completely overwhelmed with all the choices I could make that I stay stuck and stagnant and anxious
The truth is I've been forgetting to value what I need more than anything---which is time to breathe and listen to what my insides are saying, time to slow down and sit and connect with the part of me that knows real Truth
The truth is that I have such a deep longing to go back to Taos, New Mexico that I ache inside
The truth is that I have less and less patience for people who are unwilling to tell the truth
The truth is that, on this 28th day of Learning to Love This Body of Mine, I'm deeply frustrated with my body for not responding to healthy eating and exercise the way my mind thinks it should be responding. I feel a little betrayed and a lot frustrated...despite the fact that my body feels better
The truth is that lately I have felt more like hiding than coming here and telling the truth
The truth is my little girl's attachment/fear/mind issues have resulted in me feeling very attached & fearful & full of mind
The truth is, more than anything in the whole wide world, I want to be FREE and full of Truth so that I may inspire others to be the same & I want to touch and inspire people on a very wide-reaching scale, but sometimes, often, I have no idea of how to do this
The truth is I want to make money doing what I am absolutely passionate about but I don't know how to do that
The truth is sometimes I fear I will live my whole life and not do what I was put here to do and that scares me a lot
The truth is it's very hard to come here and speak the truth when it doesn't seem so pretty
The truth is sometimes I question the value of coming here and telling the truth
what I really know, now that I've had a few moments to release and breathe in all this fresh air, is that I can drop it all--all the worries and stories and fears, all the what ifs and I don't knows. I can drop it all and drop in to what IS right now. I can allow myself to feel whatever I'm feeling, I can listen to the birds and feel the sunshine. I can turn it all over and Trust that it's all exactly as it should be. I can remember who I truly am.
The Truth is that hiding the Truth never feels good. The Truth is there is great value in sharing our Real. The Truth is, in each moment, I can choose to begin again. The Truth is that I don't have to DO anything to feel ease & peace & goodness...it's right here..it's right now. It's always. It's who I am without all the other junk in the way. It's who you are too. And the door is wide open.