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Tuesday, September 13, 2011

The Messy Wild Beauty of it All


Turn on the f*cking faucet!  Tell the truth, stop trying to make everything perfect, stop trimming and editing for what you think other people want to hear. Just let it out, let it be messy, let it be real.   Andrea Scher (from this amazing interview with Brene Brown)
Self-portrait by Andrea Scher

I'm so totally inspired by the above words, written by Andrea Scher, I had to come here and share.

More than just about anything, I want to show up real and true.  I don't want to edit out the mess of my life. I don't want to delete the details that show you my full-of-flaws humanness.

I want to tell you how, just a couple of days ago, I was sobbing in my kitchen--feeling betrayed by my body for not being willing to lose a single ounce and simultaneously feeling guilty for not appreciating it for all it does for me.  I want to tell you how sometimes I feel completely overwhelmed with the task of being a mom and a wife--of being human and having 5 bazillion choices to make every day.  I want to tell you how overwhelmingly intense it can be to feel something huge and beautiful calling me but not really knowing where it's calling me--how sometimes it feels like a massive semi-truck of anxiety has come to rest on my chest.

I don't have it all together.  Often I don't have any of it together--whatever "together" even means.

But I know there is great beauty in the messiness.  And when I share my real with you, I can see that beauty more clearly.  

Here's to turning on the f*cking faucet!  Here's to sharing the mysterious, messy, wild beauty of it all.

Hallelujah.  Amen.


9 comments :

  1. I read but don't think I've left a comment yet. Not really sure though because my memory sucks:)

    I often feel overwhelmed by life as well, especially when my children were little. But even now there seems too much many days. I wonder if any of us have it all together. I'm doubtful.

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  2. My dearest friend,

    I recently read an article written by someone who everyone would think has it "all together" and she shared how there are so many days when she questions herself, compares herself to others, thinks she is not good enough. It seems we are all in this together, no matter what appears on the outside.

    There really is so much beauty in the mess of it all. It allows us to get real with ourselves and reach out and connect with others. It opens up that beautiful fountain of compassion and kindred soul connection.

    Thank you for coming here and sharing all of you. The parts we judge ourselves for are the ones that really show our true beauty.

    You are so very beautiful, wise, and inspiring. My heart overflows....

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  3. love it!!!!!!! so perfect!!!!!!!

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  4. Julia,

    I loved your message.

    So, let’s all embrace our
    “humanness”
    at our deepest level.

    I loved the quote from Brene Brown and feel so inspired to share it on my blog.

    Thank you for sharing your inner beauty.

    You shine so bright!
    xoxo

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  5. Oh sweet, beautiful Julia. I miss you. We need a magic evening again.

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  6. I REALLY needed to read this today! Hallelujah! Amen! THANK YOU! Your site is an inspiration to me.
    A while back you gave me permission to use your lovely daughter's picture on my blog. Here's the link to the post. It's about listening to teens. Thanks for being such a blessing to me and to others - by being you!
    Mary
    http://lifeafterieps.com/

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  7. Julia, This is f*#@ing awesome!

    Mae B. Unomi

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