Tuesday, October 25, 2011
41 Days (YIKES!) of Creative/Dream Play
"Even if we are not aware of it, each one of us longs to create, to manifest what is unique inside of us, to give it form. Freedom is necessary for pure creation to take place. The pressures and demands of an expected result must go. We need to re-enter the present by the simple act of being spontaneous. Intuition guides us. Trusting the flow that comes naturally is the magic of creation. The hidden, the mysterious, the sacred from within are revealed. Old patterns break. The natural movement of creation becomes part of our life. Passion sets in." Michele Cassou
I can tell it's time to do this because the thought of doing it, the butterfly-y/fluttery feeling that stirs my insides every time I consider doing it doesn't seem to be going away. It feels scary/out of my comfort zone/exciting/stretchy/intimidating. Did I mention scary? I keep wanting to put it off 'till later, I keep trying to find excuses for why this isn't a good time. My mind is saying things like--what if you can't do this every day? What if you disappoint yourself/others? How will you squeeze it in this week when the kids are off school for three days? Haven't you done enough 41 day things?
But here's what I say every time I do one of these 41 day things--when I commit here, when I declare aloud/set intentions/get clear....things happen. I actually follow through, I learn new things, I get out of my comfort zone and all kinds of beautifully unexpected, expansive things happen. And as much as I've tried to ignore/shake this idea, it doesn't seem to want to leave me alone. There is something deeper/something beyond my rational/scared mind that is trying to get my attention.
Oh, and get this....sometime in the middle of the night last night, as I was lying in bed with my eyes wide open, asking for guidance, trying to decide if I would move forward with this, I had the nudge to get out of bed and check my email. The first email I opened (from Neale Donald Walsh) said this...
On this day of your life, julia, I believe God wants you to know...
I decided to take this as a sign.
...that waiting to see what happens is not a very good
way to make decisions.
Not to decide is to decide. What are you deciding
right now by not deciding? What are you choosing
by failing to choose? Is this how you want to live
your life: by default?
It is time for you to made a decision. Do you need
a bigger signal than this?
So, here's the plan/the commitment. I will be focusing on two things that I deeply desire but continue to resist the hell out of...
To paint/create with freedom/abandon
To bring my book of poetry/art into the world.
I decided to focus on these two desires because, even though I absolutely love to paint & and even though I so want to bring my book of poetry/art out into the world, for some reason(fear), I continually resist sitting down and just beginning. I find that the more time I put these things off, the more the resistance/fear builds.
So, for 41 days I will dedicate a minimum of fifteen minutes a day to creative play. My focus will be fully on the process of creating, not the product. The idea is to get OUT OF THE WAY and allow whatever wants to come through to come through, to enter the present moment & allow intuition to be my guide. No rules. No expectations. No mistakes. I will be primarily focusing on painting & drawing (though this kind of spontaneous expression can be applied to any form of creation).
In addition to the 15 minutes of creative play, I will dedicate a minimum of 15 minutes to creating my book of poetry/art. I will do my best to simply show up with the intention of separating the creator and the editor. I will do my best to listen to what wants to come through me. I'm choosing 15 minutes because it seems doable and, typically, it's the getting myself to sit down and begin that's the greatest challenge. Often, once I sit down and get started, flow starts to happen and I stay put for much longer than the allotted time.
Here are the questions I will use to guide me along the way....
What would I create if I couldn't screw up?
What would I create if I/it didn't have to be good?
What would I create if I weren't worried about what others would think?
What would I create if I fully trusted in the process?
It is clear to me that I'm not interesting in painting/writing/creating a book for the sake of being "good" or "successful" (in the money making/status kind of way). I'm interested in painting/writing/creating a book because it brings me closer to spirit/God/Love/freedom/empowerment. It is my hope that in sharing this process with you, you will be inspired to do the same. This is where my heart is calling me.
I will plan on writing about this here (everything is so much more fun when shared with you beauties), though, my online time will most likely be less as I focus on my own creations.
I have heard that the new moon is a great time to set intentions (so that the energy of nature can help them to unfold and expand) and it just so happens that tomorrow is the new moon. So, tomorrow I will begin.
Okay, I've put this off long enough...I'm going to push "publish post" now. Here we go! Wanna play along with me? I think this is going to be fun!