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Friday, October 28, 2011
Letting Go of Good
"A hidden wave of passion lies just below the surface of most people's lives, a passion yearning to be liberated from the paralyzing myths of talent, skill, accomplishment, success and failure, and just plain not being good enough. It is time to throw off the shackles, to reclaim that which every child knows and is taught to forget: the essential right to create without interference or shame." Michele Cassou (From her amazing book Life, Paint & Passion)
If you haven't yet read the above words, please read them now. If you have read them, I recommend reading them again--I'm going to do that now too.
Whew. These words have me all stirred up this morning...I can feel that fiery, soul-waking passion rising to the surface--flushing my cheeks, creating an image of me shouting this message from the tips of the clouds to the depths of the oceans so the whole wide world (including the sea creatures) can hear.
It is so clear to me that words/concepts liketalent, skill, accomplishment, success, failure, not being good enough,are keeping us small, scared, hesitant, stuck, paralyzed. We are so afraid of not being good enough that we do not even let ourselves begin. Or we begin and then decide that we were absolutely right (that we're reallynotgood enough). And so we stop. We leave the paints to dry out, the poem half written, the camera abandoned, left alone in the closet to fend for itself, the shiny new guitar gets shoved in a corner (wedged between the wall and the old rocking chair). The voice that wants so desperately to sing grows weak with silence.
We are so convinced that we don't have the "talent"(can we pleasepleasejust forever banish that word from our vocabulary?), that we're not the "creative type," that we hold ourselves away from the very things that fuel/rejuvenate/invigorate/ heal/ empower/ awaken us.
I feel a deep sadness when I think of all the ways we hold ourselves away from what we love in the name of "good."
It's funny, I wasn't at all planning on coming here and writing about this this morning. I was going to write about how soft I feel inside. How, in the last two days since I started my41 day thing,I've been showing up in the creative space soft and receptive. There's been a beautiful gentleness. I've allowed my creative time to be meditative and quiet. I've let go of the idea of product and simply let myself play. It's been a moment-by-moment beautiful unfolding.
And this softness reminds me of how painfully hard it has so often been. I know all too well what it's like to show up in the creative space feeling scared, constricted, grippy, hesitant, unsure, so worried ofit(whateveritis) not being good enough that I stay there stuck, unable to move. I've felt this painful feeling so often that, to show up with softness/openness, with the intention of receiving, has felt so very sweet.
And then I think of others, precious friends of mine, beautiful, lovely people who I brush up against on the web, who won't allow themselves to begin or move forward because they're shackled by words like talent, skill, accomplishment, success, failure, not being good enough. And I just have this incredible urge to take all of those tender-hearted beauties in my arms (myself included) and whisper, ever so gently;
Shhhh, just let yourself be soft, open--quiet. This isn't about good. Let yourself receive what's already there-stirring deep inside. It's okay-it's already all there-just let it come through. Slow down. Listen. This isn't about good. Let go--let all the way go. Let yourself be cradled and held.
Trust the process. Trust that there is something beautiful there waiting for you, beyond the confines of your mind. This isn't about good. This is about loving and nurturing and honoring your sweet, one-of-a-kind self. It's about freedom & liberation. It's about connecting deeply, it's about opening to new ways of being/new perceptions. It's about play. It's about healing and stepping into all of who you've always been--not leaving any parts behind. It's about embracing the whole, beautiful essence of you.
THIS ISN'T ABOUT GOOD.
It's about letting love in. And out.
It's about connecting to that light in you, that light that only you can shine, so you can shine the twinkling beauty of it, of you, out in the world.