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Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Feeling the Ground


I'm back from a very nice trip to the east coast.  As I was sitting here in the warmth of my living room, catching up on blogs & emails, feeling tired & a disoriented, these words came out...



I went searching for someone else's words, the just right words that would whisper to the places that felt like they needed to be filled, words that would speak to this intense want for something I can't label or pin down.  I went searching for a moment more complete than this--this full bellied, lit candle, soft rain & fleece, mug full of hot coffee, warm October toes and falling leaves moment.  More perfect than healthy, beautiful, just right little girls safe at school.  I went searching for something that would break me open finally, let the sun more in--something warm with love & connection and fullness.  

And then I remembered my own words, this breath that I'm breathing right now, this very heart that has the capacity to love fuller than full.  And then the tears came, the cracks opened wide, than wider. And I was left with me. 

And, for a moment, it felt like enough.



I'll be back soon.  It's good to be home.  

Sending love out there to each of you,  

Julia


8 comments :

  1. i love this!!!!!
    sometimes i go looking for someone else's poem when about to write in a card, for example, & always come up w/the same conclusion..oh ya, I AM TO WRITE IT.
    i'm running out to the field to stand with you, dear friend!! xox

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  2. i am trying to hear my own words and believe them and accept them as enough --- thank you for continuing to inspire me and support me on this journey!

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  3. Wow, girl! Beautiful words. Glad you tuned in to your "enough-ness".

    Good to have you home xo

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  4. What wonderful words you found inside you. Ah, and they were there all the time - just waiting for you. Your art is beautiful, simple - powerful.

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  5. Welcome home, to this very moment.
    Welcome, Julia, welcome.
    It's lovely to have you back.
    Hooray for feeling the ground in this moment!
    xxx

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  6. Rachel, Whimsygal, Beck, Clare, Elloa...thank you for your words and your presence here--it matters so much to me.

    Sending each of you love,

    Julia

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  7. Beautiful, my filled-to-the-brim-with-love friend. Welcome back to yourself. Glad to have you back.

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  8. Hello Julia, I love that you found what you needed right inside of yourself. I am always listening for messages to my heart. I turn up my radio, open a book, call a friend, and sometimes this works, but mostly I find what I need sitting quietly within my own heart just waiting to be noticed.
    I love your writing Julia;)
    I'm following.

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What are you thinking/feeling? I'd really love to know...

♥ Julia