Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Feeling the Ground
I'm back from a very nice trip to the east coast. As I was sitting here in the warmth of my living room, catching up on blogs & emails, feeling tired & a disoriented, these words came out...
I went searching for someone else's words, the just right words that would whisper to the places that felt like they needed to be filled, words that would speak to this intense want for something I can't label or pin down. I went searching for a moment more complete than this--this full bellied, lit candle, soft rain & fleece, mug full of hot coffee, warm October toes and falling leaves moment. More perfect than healthy, beautiful, just right little girls safe at school. I went searching for something that would break me open finally, let the sun more in--something warm with love & connection and fullness.
And then I remembered my own words, this breath that I'm breathing right now, this very heart that has the capacity to love fuller than full. And then the tears came, the cracks opened wide, than wider. And I was left with me.
And, for a moment, it felt like enough.
I'll be back soon. It's good to be home.
Sending love out there to each of you,
Posted by Julia at 10:38 AM