I'm allowing myself a moment to pause here, to breathe deeply, to notice the way my insides feel when I fill them with even just one conscious breath. I'm taking a moment to look around...what is here now? My sprawled out sleeping cat, the voices of my girls doing "plays" in the other room, the empty coffee mug, the unmade bed, the unpacked bags, the lists. I'm taking a moment to notice how my mind keeps wanting to take me out of this moment to spin the tale of a thousand things that "need" doing. There are still gifts to buy, dirty laundry spilling, bathrooms that could really use some scrubbing...there is always so much. Especially during this busy holiday time.
But here's the thing. We can always slow down, we can always pause, we can always choose to breathe before we respond. We can always choose to do it differently--with love instead of urgency, with mindfulness rather than all-over-the-place-ness. We can always pause to remember what really matters--and isn't what really matters always LOVE? Always Peace. It's never about what "needs" doing.
During this busy time, I am going to do my best to slow it all down, to allow joy to be my guide rather than allowing the "shoulds" to drag me all over the place. I will do my best to pause for long enough to allow my heart to be activated so that I can respond from a place of loving and giving rather than frustration and irritation. I will do my best to be gentle and kind, to let go and ask for guidance when my controlling little self tries to take over. I will do my best to breathe, to pause, to open, to listen. I will do my best to love myself anyway when I fail miserably at all of the above (something tells me this might be the most important thing of all).
My presence here will be fleeting as I do my best to sink into what's here now. My children, my husband, my family, the twinkling lights, the noise & quiet between it all.
In that space between before and after
there is possibility
a myriad of paths that can be taken.
Happiest of holidays to each of you beauties.
With so much love,