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Monday, December 19, 2011

In the Space Between Before and After

"I’m becoming a fan of 'the pause.' Between notes and pages and words and breaths, between thought and voice, between action and reaction. In that momentary stillness, in that space between before and after, there is possibility, a  myriad of paths that can be taken, a dozen different versions of me."    -Judy Clement Wall-

Gorgeous art by Lori Portka

I'm allowing myself a moment to pause here, to breathe deeply, to notice the way my insides feel when I fill them with even just one conscious breath.  I'm taking a moment to look around...what is here now?  My sprawled out sleeping cat, the voices of my girls doing "plays" in the other room, the empty coffee mug, the unmade bed, the unpacked bags, the lists.  I'm taking a moment to notice how my mind keeps wanting to take me out of this moment to spin the tale of a thousand things that "need" doing.  There are still gifts to buy, dirty laundry spilling, bathrooms that could really use some scrubbing...there is always so much. Especially during this busy holiday time.

But here's the thing.  We can always slow down, we can always pause, we can always choose to breathe before we respond.  We can always choose to do it differently--with love instead of urgency, with mindfulness rather than all-over-the-place-ness.  We can always pause to remember what really matters--and isn't what really matters always LOVE?  Always Peace.  It's never about what "needs" doing.

During this busy time, I am going to do my best to slow it all down, to allow joy to be my guide rather than allowing the "shoulds" to drag me all over the place.  I will do my best to pause for long enough to allow my heart to be activated so that I can respond from a place of loving and giving rather than frustration and irritation.  I will do my best to be gentle and kind, to let go and ask for guidance when my controlling little self tries to take over.  I will do my best to breathe, to pause, to open, to listen. I will do my best to love myself anyway when I fail miserably at all of the above (something tells me this might be the most important thing of all).

My presence here will be fleeting as I do my best to sink into what's here now. My children, my husband, my family, the twinkling lights, the noise & quiet between it all.

In that space between before and after
there is possibility 
a  myriad of paths that can be taken.  

In that space between before and after, there is possibility.   We can always begin again from right where we are. 

Here's to remembering what really matters.  Here's to remembering that it's always always about Love.

Happiest of holidays to each of you beauties.

With so much love,



  1. Yes. Breathe. THAT'S what I was forgetting today. xoxo

  2. To activating your heart...and breath.

    Sharing your in Love, Peace and Happiest of holidays :)

  3. Julia, yes taking a breath, I hope you have a wonderful Holiday with your family and all the best in the New Year, always a pleasure reading your blog, sending hugs your way.

  4. Yes, "I will do my best." Thanks for the reminder, and wishing you plenty of "the space between."

  5. "I always wanted a happy ending...
    Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle and end.

    Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious ambiguity."
    Gilda Radner

    I love this quote and your post reminded me of the same thing Gilda said. We (as a culture) move so fast that we miss the moments of the heart. Thank you for beautiful message. Barb

  6. Holding quieter, slowed down space, kindness and peace for you, for me, for all... Thank you for this gentle reminder, Julia. Merry Christmas to you and yours...

  7. Yes - me too - am enjoying the pause..the quiet..the space here in the middle. Wishing you all the best!


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♥ Julia