"Tension is who you think you should be. Relaxation is who you are."
Photo by Lauraeleven11
Since I wrote this post last week, I've really been noticing what feels heavy in my life/in my head/in my home/in my heart. I decided to dump all of this heaviness on to paper, in the form of a list. It turned out to be a very long list, ranging from things that are bugging/irritating me, like the dirty car & the disorganized closets, to bigger things that have been weighing on me for decades; like this nagging, urgent feeling of needing to figure out what my "calling" is. It felt like relief to get all of the heavy thoughts/shoulds/fears out of my head, on to paper.
And then I started "tackling" some of those things. I started with the dirty car. As soon as I got the vacuum & Armor All out, I felt some relief. And, while cleaning my car, I kept thinking about how much easier it was to actually clean the car than to think about cleaning the car. I then made a phone call that I had been putting off for weeks. Again, much easier to do than to feel the burden of not doing.