Thursday, January 12, 2012
Doing It Differently
Doing it differently. I've decided that (in addition to my little word) this is my new motto. Every morsel of my being has decided I can't do it the same anymore. What is it? It is anything where there is pain/old hurt/old hold back/old, self-imposed limitations. I'm feeling this on a deep, physical level...I am finding that (in the midst of something where I would typical react/respond in the old-worn-out way) my body is literally getting up and doing it differently. And since I'm having a tough time explaining this, let me give you an example.
On Saturday night my husband and I had a date night, not necessarily something that is typical for us. We went to a local restaurant/bar to eat dinner and listen to some live music. A little bit into the evening, I noticed my husband (who was sitting across the table from me) was beginning to yawn. And, as I noticed him yawning, I noticed myself getting angry. In my mind I was thinking oh, great, we never get to go out on dates and here we are out on a date and he's acting bored out of his mind....another mediocre evening.
And then I noticed myself thinking about all of the other mediocre evenings we've had and how very tired I am of mediocre. And while I was watching all of these typical/old/limiting thoughts (and all of the yucky emotions that went with them) permeate my being, I did something different. Are you ready for this? I watched myself stand up and walk to the other side of the table, the side of the table where my husband sat, and plop myself down directly beside him. And then....I watched myself begin to kiss him. Seriously. I can't really explain just how HUGE this was for me. And can I just tell you something? It changed EVERYTHING. It shifted the entire evening. He perked up. I perked up. We listened to the music, we woo-hooed, we kissed a bit more. We had a really good conversation where both of us really listened. We stayed out past midnight. And then we went home, and...continued to do things differently! Whew! Before we fell (happily) asleep that night, my husband said, I think I'm liking this doing things differently.
I think there was some serious planetary movement that night. I can feel the shift in every part of my being. And I'm in awe.
This is what I want most to say: one single action, one single movement, one single moment of choosing to do it differently can rock the whole world. How incredibly empowering is it to know this? It's not that I haven't known this before, it's just that something has shifted, deepened. And here's the thing...when we shift something in one area, it shifts things in every area. It's a choice, a decision, a knowing that we alone have the power to change everything.
And this is just one example...there is so much more. 2012 is seriously rocking my world.
Okay, everyone...I'm raising my glass right now (or rather my coffee mug)...here's to doing it differently!