Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing, there is a field. I'll meet you there. Rumi

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Thank you for being here. I'm so glad you're here.

Friday, February 3, 2012

My Heart Can't Contain It All



"I will not die an unlived life. I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise. I choose to risk my significance; to live so that which comes to me as seed goes to the next as blossom and that which comes to me as blossom, goes on as fruit."   

~Dawna Markova

Self portrait on the Oregon coast yesterday


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If you haven't yet read the above words, please read them now.  Very, very slowly.  And then maybe read them again and again.  I have a word for the year (peace) & a motto (doing it differently).   This quote, I think I'm claiming it as my very own for all the rest of my days.  

I will not die an unlived life. 

I will not live in fear of falling or catching fire. 

I choose to inhabit my days, to allow my living to open me, to make me less afraid, more accessible, to loosen my heart until it becomes a wing, a torch, a promise.

You know how sometimes you feel like your heart might burst?  Like, the love that you feel in there is running out of space because there is so much of it and you can't possibly contain it all?

I feel that way right now.

For all who live and breathe.  For all that is.

For the soft, purring cat and the old, old sweet dog who are curled up and snoring beside me.  For my beautiful, one-of-a-kind, precious sleeping little girls.  For the seagulls that squawked all around me this morning, especially the one that tucked his little orange beak into his tale feathers and so trustingly closed his eyes. For the shadows and rocks and feathers and broken shells I found in the sand today.  For the deep, deep breaths of all that fresh salty sea air.  For the tiny granules of sand between my toes. For those brave, strong, moss covered oaks that grow in my backyard. For the moon that glows golden outside my window.  For the messages and synchronicities that come at exactly the right time.  For these miracle fingers that tap and tap.  For LIFE that is so very fragile and so very strong and so very very precious.  For wounds that heal and Love that grows and grows and grows some more.  For my husband, my family, who continue to love me no matter what.  For prayers that get said and prayers that get answered. For dreams that get dreamed and dreams that come true.  For our sun that continuously, tirelessly shines and warms and lights and creates and breathes life into us all.  For this heart that beats and beats, so strong, so alive, so full, so overflowing.

For the precious, beautiful ones who sob and hurt, who hurt so deeply, who are afraid and doubt.  Who don't know why.  Who keep putting one foot in front of another despite, despite...so much.

I want to stand at the very tippy top of the world and shout and sing and whisper, and hold every single one of your hands and hearts in my own and gently, gently whisper... I LOVE YOU.

To the whole wide messy, beautiful, just right world, I want to say-

I LOVE YOU.

To you, beautiful heart.

And you.

And you.

And a bazillion other yous.  I want to say-

I love you.

You are so beautiful.

You are so brave.

You are so absolutely, gloriously, perfectly, preciously, uniquely  YOU.

There is not a single other like you.  Please, please don't ever be any other way.

You are just right exactly the way you are.  

You are just right.  You can relax.  You can just be.

I love you.

Namaste.  


Namaste to the whole wide precious world.


32 comments :

  1. That view, that face, this post, the love: ahhhhh, heart exploding like a volcano of love, spilling over, catching fire.

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  2. Jill, there are no words--just a heart overflowing.

    You are absolutely precious and I couldn't be happier that you are right here with me.

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  3. falling down the rabbit hole of chasing one site badge after another, I found this heartbreakingly beautiful post. Thank you so much for helping me remember my overflowing heart <3

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    1. I'm so so very happy that my words helped you remember.

      Blessings to you,

      Julia

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    2. What Jill said...cuz I couldn't have said it any better. Julia, you are an inspiration! Thank you for sharing, so that others can be compelled to dig deep into their souls and find their amazing purpose. XOXO

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  4. Rosie...I love that you're here.

    You are one beautiful woman.

    Sending so much love your sweet way,

    Julia

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  5. I LOVE your beautiful heart, my sister. You are so amazing, your messages are always so welcomed.
    xoxo, Amy

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    1. Sweet little sister, I love you so much. I'm counting the days until you are here.

      Hugs to you,

      Jules

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  6. This post was featured on Jills blog and I want to thank her for doing that because that's the way how I have found your blog, and thank -you- for creating this beautiful blogpost. So soooo beautiful.

    This makes me silent. I have no other words then just to say thank you. Truly inspiring.

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    1. Dear Lindsay,

      It is so good to have you here.

      There is so much to be said in the silence...

      Sending love to you,

      Julia

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  7. Wow love this post! So beautiful and touching and a wonderful reminder for me in keeping it real!

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    1. Michele, I'm so happy it resonated. Thank you for taking the time to connect.

      With love,

      Julia

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  8. Oh..this is absolutely beautiful and oh-so-inspiring. And - thank you..thank you for that quote. I'm going to print it out and read it EVERY day. Namaste' - yes - namaste'!

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    1. Marcie...I think it's my all time favorite quote (and I have quite a collection). It just kind of says it all.

      Namaste right back.

      Julia

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  9. Ah Julia, I'm covered in goosebumps and filled with LOVE. Such gorgeous words that need to be shared with the world.

    Infinite love to you always.

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  10. Julia, that was beautiful! I lost a dear friend today and this is what I needed to here. Life is short, don't be afarid to live and love. Love is so important! Thank you! You have a beautiful soul.

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    1. Dear Dawn,

      I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Ahh...life is so very tender and precious.

      Wrapping you in love & warmth,

      Julia

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  11. I bow to you. I honor you. I love you. Thank you for the powerful essence shared here. There is nothing more important than Love. You continuously share your heart in the biggest, most beautiful ways I have ever experienced. I hope you know how much I appreciate you and love you. We are One.

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    1. Alia...you know how much I love you. You are absolutely precious to me.

      Big hugs,

      Julia

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  12. Hey Julia.

    I don't even know I ended up on this page. And I'm glad I did. I am also in the process of cracking open.. surrendering to whatever needs to come through.

    Thank you for your words. They helped me checkin to see if I'm holding any resistance to Connecting with life.

    x

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  13. Andrew, I've got a big smile on my face! You are a brave man to come here among so many women, I'm so very happy you're here.

    "Surrendering to whatever needs to come through." Ah, yes..this is an ongoing prayer for me, to just let go and allow it all to flow in and through. This cracking open can be so deeply painful and just as deeply beautiful.

    I look forward to continued connection.

    Sending love your way,

    Julia

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  14. Oh Julia, you are such a gift.

    I can see you there, up at the tippy top of the world, and I hear you singing your very own song, calling all those who are wanting so desperately to come forward.

    What gift you are to the world, and to me... So glad you were able to spend that time on the beach, in the light, filling your well and then radiating it back out to all of us.

    I love you, too.

    XOXO

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    1. Christa...I keep thinking of you in your studio (the one I can already see so clearly) painting your heart out, it fills me with such joy to imagine you there.

      Thank you for your words, your heart--how very lucky I am to be on the receiving end of all of your beauty.

      Enjoy your Sunday, my friend,

      Julia

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    1. Sweet Kelli, xoxoxoxoxoxoxo right back!

      Thanks so much for stopping by,

      Julia

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    1. So beautiful to have you here, Lisa. Thank you for taking the time to connect. ♥

      With love,

      Julia

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  17. Just beautiful. My heart is so much fuller because your heart is a part of it.
    Thank you, sweet, loving friend. You are simply amazing, and I am so grateful that we are on this journey together.
    ♥ ♥ ♥

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    1. Beautiful Jodi. How your words fill me. I am so absolutely grateful that you are right here beside me.

      Have a joy-filled, sunshiny Sunday,

      Julia

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  18. gahhhh....my heart is jumping up and down
    and shouting,
    calling out YES....a million of them!
    grabbing pen and journal
    to scribble down these sparks of life
    and press them like fresh clover
    into the pages.
    Sweet beautiful goodness....oh how I thank you
    for this sterling share,
    Jennifer

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    1. Jennifer, I'm a little wordless right now.

      Your response is so, so absolutely, beautifully ALIVE. These words, "scribble down these sparks of life and press them like fresh clover
      into the pages," just stopped me in my tracks.

      Oh, the beauty of words. And connections.

      I am so happy to have you and your sparkling presence here. It means so much to me that my words/message resonated.

      Sending so much love to you,

      Julia

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♥ Julia