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Friday, March 23, 2012

Space to Ramble


"You don’t need to know how to get where you’re going. You need to know how to trust where you are-- and how to listen to your truth in this moment as if it were the only voice on earth that mattered. It is. "  Tama Kieves

Artwork by the beautiful Lori Portka

I think I might need to let myself ramble a bit this morning.  It's been a wild last couple of days...we had unexpected snow, record-level unexpected snow, in fact.  So, school was cancelled Wednesday & Thursday, which meant a lot of unexpected time with my two little ones.  Which meant not having time to do the other things I thought I would do. I did my best to roll with it, but I have to say, there were some pretty sticky (aka, hellish) moments there.  And a few good ones too.  So, this morning is about taking some deep breaths, attempting to find that quiet, center place once again.  

As I write these words, I'm very aware of the loud little judgmental voice in my head that's saying...you should be able to find that quiet center when you're around your children, why does it require total solitude to find it?  And my response back to "little dumb voice" is, because sometimes it does.  And when your almost 10 year-old has a 2 hour screaming fit because her little bead thing got messed up, it's damn hard.  And because I'm human and far less than perfect. And I get tired.  And there's room for it all....it's all okay.  (Insert image of me sticking my tongue out at "little dumb voice.)

Whew.

Okay, now that I've gotten that out, I want to share something.  I'm taking this really amazing class right now with Christine Kane and there are two questions that she asked us that I want to throw gently toss back at you...I think they're really great, dig-deep kinds of questions.  Here they are...

1).  “If money, people’s opinions, or health & geographic limitations were not an issue –what would your perfect average day look like?  She had us take ourselves through every aspect of our life (home environment/every part of our day/relationships/what we eat, etc...).

2)  What in your life are you tolerating?

Hmmm, aren't they good?  I've had a lot of aha! moments/clarity in the midst of answering these questions--I'm thinking you might too.

On another note, my family & I are heading to the mountains of Idaho for Spring break so I will be unplugging for a bit.  I'm looking forward to feeling the ground, breathing some fresh mountain air and being really gentle and easy with myself if/when I get cranky with my family.

In the meantime, I hope you are able to trust where you are and listen to your truth in this moment as if it were the only voice on earth that matters. It really is the only voice that matters.  "  Happy, happy spring everyone.  

With love,

Julia

5 comments :

  1. I LURVE the question, "What are you tolerating in your life right now?" When I did career coaching last year, my coach asked me that in the first session and it blew me away.

    I hope that at this moment you are enjoying fresh mountain air.

    Love, love, love xxx

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  2. WOW! great queries to munch on...will take with me and my journal on my ferry ride commute today and see what comes up!

    i love how honest you are about the difficulty to be calm and centred with those children that we love (with those tantrums that we tolerate!)

    hope your holiday is full of those really good moments that happen in between!!!

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  3. Thank you for that.

    I often feel bad/guilty for feeling like I can only truly be centered when I am in solitude or in a very calming environment.For feeling that twinge or cringe when I know that time will be interrupted.It can knock you off your axis a bit.

    I hope that the mountains, fresh air and uninterrupted time with your family is full of love, renewal and balance!

    Fondly.....

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  4. Those are some good questions, I'll have to think about those. Jules even with my little 8 pound dog it's hard to center myself sometimes don't be too hard on yourself, I think you are amazing :).
    Have a wonderful time in Idaho with the family, love you!
    Amy

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  5. Julia, have a magical time away! While you're gone I'll ponder these two questions. The second one seems to be the toughest. Hmmm....;)
    Sending love,
    Leah

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