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Tuesday, April 24, 2012

My New Favorite Word

"I want to unfold.  Let no place in me hold itself closed.  For when I am closed, I am false."  

~Rainer Maria Rilke

I'm obsessed with a word.  And even though it feels new, it's not.  I see that this is what I've wanted for a long, long time.  What I've wanted, hungered for, is to 


I don't want mediocre, to settle for less.  I don't want to check out, chicken out, glaze over.  I don't want to do what's easy/convenient/practical/safe/appropriate.  I don't want to be numb, uninvested.  I don't want to hold back and wish I had.  I don't want to believe in can'ts or not enough-ness.  I don't want to be ruled by rules or run by shoulds.  I don't want to watch others and feel that pang of "if only."

I want to ZING with inspiration, passion, ALIVENESS, inner peace.  I want to open and open and open.  I want to lean in close and closer--to my singing feathered friends, to buds and blossoms and dew drops about to fall, to the depth in your eyes, to the hurt in your heart, to the pulse of life.  I want to embrace every bit of the ME-ness of ME.  And the You-ness of YOU.  I want to let go, to fall back.  I want to create with abandon. To TRUST with every fiber of my being.  I want to KNOW that I can.  I want to continue to feel the fear and do it anyway, even when my voice shakes.  

I want to unfold.  Let no place in me hold itself closed.  (Rilke)

Here's what I know...

I know that the one and only thing/person that/who has ever been in the way is me.  Little, limited, trying-to-be-good me.  

You become a trailblazer by virtue of being your genuine self.    Daniel LaPorte

Here's the beauty.  That little-me is moving over, getting out of the way more and more.  That little-me voice is getting less and less audible.  In her place, is this other voice.  The Real, genuine, sure voice....and this voice is BOLD and soft and BOUNDLESS and so very ready to step forth, to celebrate her GIFTS, to BE FULLY, to step through---to THRIVE.  

I have so much more to say about this.  

For now, I'm wondering, what does thriving look/feel like for you?  What do you WANT with every fiber of your being?  I'd really love to know.


  1. Amen to all of it! Beautiful, strong, and clear post, my friend. Zing, zing, zing away! I am so thankful to have you in my world. xo

  2. Beautiful Brooke. I love that we get to zing together! And I love you.

    Here we go!

  3. What I've been wanting to do more then anything is to explore creatively and I finally started to paint again today. I don't know why we have to fight ourselves so much to get out of our own way. But man it feels good we we do. Great message Jules, love you.

    1. Oh, yay, Amy! You keep're amazing!

      I love you so much.

  4. I too THRIVE when I am doing art and being creative
    I also THRIVE when I am in nature, just being there, especially at the sea
    What I really CRAVE is to be at peace with myself (and all my voices) TRUST the universe, to LET GO of the worry and the fear...perhaps hear my BIG TRUE voice more compassionately!!

    1. "What I really CRAVE is to be at peace with myself (and all my voices) TRUST the universe, to LET GO of the worry and the fear...perhaps hear my BIG TRUE voice more compassionately!!"

      This is beautiful, Christy. Me too. I think this is the true definition of thriving and what I'm always wanting to move toward (or settle into).

      Thank you so much for being here, for taking the time to connect. xo

    2. it is lovely to strive to thrive with you here! (I simply could not resist, hee hee)

  5. I love this line: "I don't want to check out, chicken out, glaze over."

    My thrive, at least for now, is a bit different than yours. Mine doesn't need more activity or energy, it needs rest to balance out all the good work. My thrive needs to be gentle, to soften, to relax, to be quiet and still with the vast space that is the backdrop to everything else. It wants to be whispered to and held, allowed to fall asleep in the wide lap of love and kindness.

    I have to say again how much I adore you, and how happy what's manifesting for you makes me.

  6. Your thrive is beautiful, Jill...I want all of what you describe above too, intermixed with some moving and grooving. The space to simply be, to tune in, to relax and soften is absolutely key for me and something I always, always want to come back to. Otherwise it can all get quickly blown out of perspective (and feel empty and frantic).

    Coming back to that center place, that place of softness & rest is my anchor, if that's not there, I get tossed all over the place...and then none of the other stuff matters. Does that make sense?

    I love you, sweet person. Thank you for you.

  7. Thrive... my friend, I think I have found the topic for my TED talk!
    I love you, honor you, and am so grateful to be on this path with you.

  8. Alia. Oh, how the feeling is mutual. Watching you thrive is about the best thing ever.

    Forever counting my blessings for you.

  9. Fabulous! I love that you are obsessed with the word thrive. Being the fullest expression of ourselves is thriving. I signed up for you rss feed! Yay! I haven't been visiting blogs as much so if it comes in my inbox that is so much better for me. I'm so grateful because I have missed you and all of your glorious beauty and wisdom!

    Alia- OMG a Ted talk?! Love you two. xoxo

    I can't get my wordpress thing to work so a picture of me comes up with a link to my blog. So confused about it.

    1. "Being the fullest expression of ourselves is thriving." I love that definition, Lori. And I absolutely, totally adore you. So happy that you're here, my lovely friend.

  10. This is absolutely gorgeous, Julia. And inspiring and reading it makes my insides hum.

    THIS: I want to open and open and open.

    That's my thrive, I think. I want to open to my own creative badassery, my fearless (love-right-through-the-fear) self, my big, improbably, beautiful dreams, my own boundless energy.

    I have what I need.

    Thank you for giving me a chance to say that, my friend. You've made want to leap into my workday in grand fashion!

    1. I'm so happy you came here and said what you needed to say, J. I love that this made your insides hum...that's what your presence always and forever does for me.

      You SO have what you need.

      Here's to LEAPing!


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