Tuesday, April 24, 2012
My New Favorite Word
"I want to unfold. Let no place in me hold itself closed. For when I am closed, I am false."
~Rainer Maria Rilke
I'm obsessed with a word. And even though it feels new, it's not. I see that this is what I've wanted for a long, long time. What I've wanted, hungered for, is to
I don't want mediocre, to settle for less. I don't want to check out, chicken out, glaze over. I don't want to do what's easy/convenient/practical/safe/appropriate. I don't want to be numb, uninvested. I don't want to hold back and wish I had. I don't want to believe in can'ts or not enough-ness. I don't want to be ruled by rules or run by shoulds. I don't want to watch others and feel that pang of "if only."
I want to ZING with inspiration, passion, ALIVENESS, inner peace. I want to open and open and open. I want to lean in close and closer--to my singing feathered friends, to buds and blossoms and dew drops about to fall, to the depth in your eyes, to the hurt in your heart, to the pulse of life. I want to embrace every bit of the ME-ness of ME. And the You-ness of YOU. I want to let go, to fall back. I want to create with abandon. To TRUST with every fiber of my being. I want to KNOW that I can. I want to continue to feel the fear and do it anyway, even when my voice shakes.
I want to unfold. Let no place in me hold itself closed. (Rilke)
Here's what I know...
I know that the one and only thing/person that/who has ever been in the way is me. Little, limited, trying-to-be-good me.
You become a trailblazer by virtue of being your genuine self. Daniel LaPorte
Here's the beauty. That little-me is moving over, getting out of the way more and more. That little-me voice is getting less and less audible. In her place, is this other voice. The Real, genuine, sure voice....and this voice is BOLD and soft and BOUNDLESS and so very ready to step forth, to celebrate her GIFTS, to BE FULLY, to step through---to THRIVE.
I have so much more to say about this.
For now, I'm wondering, what does thriving look/feel like for you? What do you WANT with every fiber of your being? I'd really love to know.