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Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Screaming Past My "Limitations"


"She let go, forging a hole through the air as she screamed past her limitations." Susan Mrosek

"illuminate" 268/365 by zentrinity
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It's official.  After weeks and weeks of back & forthing it with my publisher, I've signed off on my book--which means that I can no longer find anything that needs to be edited and it's now on its way to the printer.  Which means that in 3-ish weeks from now these creations of mine will be something I/you can hold in my/your hands.  Yikes.  I'm feeling a little a lot wobbly over here (and I don't think it's just from this cold from hell that has decided to pay me a visit).  It feels like a piece of my heart is about to make its way into this world and, as exciting as I know I'll eventually get about this, right now I'm shaking in my imaginary boots.  This feels really scary.  

But I'm no longer allowing fear to stop me in my tracks-I can't do that anymore.  I know the fear wouldn't be here if this didn't really matter.  If I was playing it safe and allowing myself to stay comfy, the fear wouldn't be here. This fear is showing me with such clarity that I am moving toward what is calling me and that I've decided to go.  And that I can most certainly go despite the fear.  It's showing me that I don't need to cling on for dear life--I can let go now and trust, let go & allow.

I've so often cowered in the face of fear, I've allowed it to talk me out of moving forward, I've allowed it to keep me stuck and small.  I'm so ready to see what's on the other side, to see what happens when I move anyway. 

So, I will continue to breathe and take ibuprofen (for the hellish cold) and know that this is a birth and that I must be very gentle and loving with myself right now.  

To all of you who have been right here with me along the way, I seriously can't thank you enough.  You are angels to me & I'm forever grateful.

Here's to letting go, forging beautiful, grand, life-opening holes through the air and screaming past our perceived limitations. 

Sending love,

Julia

12 comments :

  1. scream away, friend!
    that has got to be the best hole!!!
    can't wait to seeeeeeeeee!
    xoxox

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  2. So proud of you, Julia! You're an inspiration.

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  3. YAY!!!!!!!!!! I am so proud of you, and I can't wait to hold it in my hands! Sending you so much love! You did it! You took that leap. Amazing! :)

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  4. I agree with JC, you are an inspiration. First, you send us love every chance you get. Then, you break through your own fears and now are sharing more of your self with this world...with all of us. There is the sense that, okay, if you can do this, then I can (...fill in the blank...).

    Can't wait to get your book!

    And we all send you love, lots of it.

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  5. Oh just found your blog through Clare Dreams. LOVE what I've read so far...need to come back. Congrats on your book!! BTW Love your profile words...

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  6. Thanks so much for your post today! I was just journalling about the same thing "limitations" this morning :) Your writting inspired me to continue on my path!

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  7. Julia, you are beautiful, and bold, and brave. I remember back in March when I "signed off" on Cosette's Tribe. OMG! I was shaking in my boots! I thought I would feel excited but instead I was nervous, scared, sad...geesh. Now that I am past that stage (I'm still not 100% sure what it was about) I am beginning to feel excited and confident because I know my book is good and that it will find its readers and do the work that it was meant to do.
    Your book will do the same. And you will write more books. I'm thrilled for you and can't wait to get a copy!
    Sending love and boldness to you sister! Oh, and give Brooke my love.
    Leah

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  8. Jules I'm so excited for you! This is such an amazing & exciting thing, I'm so proud of you. I can't wait to have a copy in my hand so I can treasure your heart in words :)
    Love you,
    Amers

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  9. You women are amazing. Really, I don't know what I would do without your support. From my heart to yours, thank you so so much.

    With love & endless gratitude,

    Julia

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  10. Wow! Awesome. You are such a deserving soul! So excited for you.

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  11. "Today is the day you let it go. Your chance will come, smiling." ~Me I can't wait to have this book in my hands!

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  12. how fantastic....I am right here with you (right down to the hellish colf/flu....and definitely the screaming through it!)

    can't wait to hold your words in print!

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♥ Julia