Gifts, Giving, Giveaway Winner!

The way to receive is to GIVE.  All of the gifts are in the GIVING.  When we hold back, waiting to receive, waiting to give---we feel lack, less, depleted, needy, wanting, not enough, depressed--deeply sad.  We feel our light being condensed.  Be the SOURCE, no matter what.

Artwork by my beautifully, open-hearted friend, Judy Clement Wall

A couple of weeks ago, I woke with the above words dancing in the center of my being & quickly jotted them down in my little notebook.  It's not that I haven't known the power and necessity of giving, it's just that I forgot for a while. I got scared and my mind started telling me that I didn't know what to do, that I really don't have anything to offer.  Minds can be so dumb.  Rather than focusing on what I could give, I started focusing on what I wasn't getting.  I began to see lack rather than great abundance.  I started making what others might think more important than honoring this great light within me.  

And, like I said in my last post, the longer I listened to this ick, the longer I went without moving--the greater the suffering became.  

It is getting clearer and clearer to me that when we withhold/contain/quiet down what we know we are here to give, what is dying to come out, what is meant to be shared, we suffer immensely.  I see clearly that I can no longer do this.  It is becoming more and more important, no critical, for me to open my arms wide to all that I am, to all I am being called to give.  And to guide others to the same. No matter who might think what, no matter how much trembling fear is here.  No matter what.  

I see clearly that the moment I shift my focus from what I'm not getting to what can I give, the whole world opens wide, beauty rushes in to greet me, and, instead of feeling constricted and strained,  I feel release and relief--I feel like the lovely, cartwheeling girl in J's liberating artwork above.

At 2:00 am Tuesday morning, I returned from a beautiful, four-day-long whirlwind trip to Vermont to surprise my sweet sister for her baby shower...I returned to the words of seven lovely women-blessing words that said yes, please to working with me...writing those last words just made me all goosebumpy and shaky with excitement!   I can hardly wait to begin this new journey of guiding others back to the self they've always been but have got really good at covering up (I understand!) and keeping in.  

A couple of minutes ago, I paused, took several deep breaths, said my own kind of prayer and, with eyes closed, drew one of the seven names out of my little basket...

I'm thrilled to say that the name that literally jumped out of the basket is Susie Marie!  Susie Marie, please email me at juliafeh@yahoo.com and we will get started on what I am sure will be a beautiful, life-opening adventure for both of us.

Thank you, each of you, for so beautifully showing up here, for confirming and encouraging--I am humbled and so deeply, forever grateful for you.