Wednesday, April 10, 2013
"How can I accomplish something good when I feel so broken and doubtful? Okay, so I'm forgetting that it's the light in me that holds the power. I am willing to step forward and that is my gift. That's my part. I am willing to trust a greater love within me." Tama Kieves
I just took this photo from the back deck of the little cottage I have brought myself to for a couple of days. I'm sitting at a little table looking out at the Pacific Ocean - sliding glass door opened wide so I can hear the magic of the waves, feel the air coming off the ocean - breathe in deeply this salty freshness. Seagulls swoop up high and then down close to foaming white. A vanilla-scented candle flickers bright beside me.
I remind myself to breathe deeply. I remind myself that there is no rush, no need to push. I remind myself, like Tama Kieves reminded herself in her above words, that it's the light within me that holds the power.
It seems the closer I get to stepping into what is calling me, the more yes-es I say to the dreams that feel so much bigger than me, the more this little fear-brained part of me grabs hold and tries to steal the breath, the yes from me.
I am all too familiar with this fear-brained one and (thankfully!) I know that I no longer need to let scared- little-me run the show. I can keep these hands clicking over letters and spaces, I can keep baby stepping my way toward what is calling me. One gentle step at at time, regardless of what little fearful one has to say, I can keep moving.
When I announced here that I was in the process of creating an online class, every part of me came alive and felt the rightness. And, from this deep, knowing part of me, I still know that creating and sharing what I have to share is right and true. Despite the voices that are saying, you don't know how, it's too much, it's overwhelming, who do you think you are? I begin and begin and begin. I keep showing up. I breathe.
I'm willing to trust a greater love within me - the greater love that brought me here to this strip of magical sea to create what is in me to create. Big sighs.
Hello fear, I see you there. Now please, move aside...
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To those of you who have signed up for my class, I'm so excited and beyond grateful to have you on board! We already have a beautiful, gorgeous, soulful group of women who have said yes to getting naked! I can hardly wait to get started.
Today (and for the next couple of days) I'm offering a giveaway for 1 spot in the class (which begin May 6th). Just leave a few words in the comment section to enter the giveaway...if you've already registered, you could think about offering this spot to a friend. I will announce the winner on Saturday 4/13/12 (which is only a couple of days away (so hurry!) & happens to be my beautiful little girl's 11th b-day).
To register (or to read more) about my Getting Naked class click HERE.
P.S: Things will most likely continue to be pretty quiet around here as I sink into the process of creating this love of mine.