The thought of beginning a blog post right now feels daunting. It always feels this way when I've been away for a while - like there is far too much inside of me, so much that wants to come out into the light but I don't know where to begin with any of it.
Which makes me know that I must...
I'm listening to this John Mayer song right now ("Born and Raised") and there's something about it...I'm thinking maybe I should just post the song for you and then I wouldn't have to write any of my own words. Maybe it's the longing howl of the harmonica (which reminds me of how I imagine wolves sound when they're crying out for something). God, how I love the sound of the harmonica - it's always been my very favorite instrument. If my soul could speak out loud I think it would sound like the harmonica. Or maybe it's the couple of lines that make the hair on my arms stand up straight with resonance - or the want in his voice.
I don't know - there's just something in this song that speaks to those deep places that want so much to speak and be seen.
Here are a few of the lines that make the hair stand up...
I still have dreams, they're not the same
They don't fly as high as they used to.
I got a mom, I got a dad
But they do not have each other.
Cause one of these days I'll be born and raised
And it's such a waste to grow up lonely.
Total goosebumps. (For reasons that, if you & I could sit next to each other in conversation, I could only partly explain.) I'm learning that words just can't touch some things.
It feels good to let myself ramble right now - to not have a plan or a direction, to let it seep out how it wants to.
I want to tell you all about my family trip to Grand Teton National Park & Yellowstone but, in just a minute, I need to pick my girls up from their play date so, instead, I'll show you some photos. Like I said, some things words just can't touch...
God, how these places, those animals have my heart. Wonderlands, for sure. Nature is, no doubt, the ultimate creation. I am left humbled and longing (in a way I just can't explain).
And now I'm off to clean and unpack and wash and fold and get my little ones ready to start school in a couple of weeks.
I'll be back soon with more of Debbie Ford's questions to ponder...
For now, I send love to each of you beautiful people. With all of me, thank you for being here.
Oh, and below is the song...