"...the next step is the most important step. Take it
My beautiful friend, Alia (from Inner Bliss) and I are committing to 41 days of saying YES....to nudges & whisperings and giving and self-nurturing and Love. We are going to tell you about it as we go along. We are going to share with you how invigorating and life-changing it is to deeply honor and move toward all that is calling us, to saying YES to it all.
Day 5: 5/4/11
I’ll meet you there. Rumi
Day 6: 5/5/11
Oh goodness! So much sweet yes-ing going on over here! I decided to follow the nudge to take "Brave Girls Club" online class, called Soul Restoration! My mind was trying to reason that I really didn't have enough time/money but I signed up anyway, though a bit late, so I have some catching up to do--I'm feeling very eager to dive in...pretty amazing stuff going on there.
Today I went into my little girl's kindergarten class to read with kiddos and when I was all done reading with them, I stood around a bit just observing while the kids packed up their belongings to head home. While I was observing, I noticed a little girl looking quite sad--all the other kids were packing up their stuff and she was just standing there looking like she was about to cry. I went up to her and gently asked her if she was okay and she immediately burst into tears, saying she wanted cards like the other kids had. (There was the option for parents to order cards with their children's artwork and apparently hers hadn't ordered any.) It was a very sweet moment of me comforting her and explaining that it might not be too late...she calmed right down and reached out for the pendant around my neck (one that I had made), asking if I could make one for her. My daughter, Lily, had one on and apparently this little girl had been admiring it all day. I told her that I thought she could have one and her little, sweet face lit right up. This was one of those nudges that I could have easily ignored (and may have had I not been present to what was going on)...my mind could have easily talked me out of approaching this little girl...there's too much going on, they're getting ready to go home, I'm sure she's fine, you're not the teacher, etc....and I would have missed this sweetness.
And another yes! In about a half hour, my girls & I are heading about an hour north of here to go meet Kelly Rae Roberts! Again, my mind has been trying to talk me out of it all day...it's too much to do with the girls on a school night, there are too many other things to do, etc, etc...but I'm going anyway!
I am learning that my mind will always, always make a big, damn deal about pretty much everything! It will always try to control and limit and hold me back, it will always pester and "should" all over me....here's the beautiful difference! I'm not listening anymore! I'm just not!
Day 7: 5/6/11
My new "ZENDO" page is an example of one of those ideas that just came out of nowhere that I just decided to do...my mind kept saying, you need to get more stuff, or just the right stuff, you really should wait, you don't really know what this is yet....but I didn't wait. I just threw it up there with a big YES! I think this yes-ing stuff is pretty cool.
Day 8/9: 5/8/11
Things have been full the last few days. There's just been a lot going on-- lots of sweetness, lots of chaos-ish-ness (yelling, fighting, tantrumming little ones), lots of household stuff to do--cooking, cleaning, laundry--the usual stuff that comes with life and kids.
It has taken a serious amount of mindfulness to stay where I am, to not bolt. Or to bolt if that's what really feels right. I guess, though, it's really not bolting if I'm consciously choosing to take a break. Like now, I have some time to myself because I made the conscious choice that it would be best for me (and everyone around me). The nudge that I've been following the last couple of days, has been to quiet my mind, to not allow myself to get thrown all over the place by it. It's not as if my mind hasn't been trying its hardest to get me to go to ugly places, it's that my commitment to not going there has been stronger. And sometimes I just allow myself to go down the mind road for a while. But just for a while. When I pause and ask myself what I really need, rather than responding to whatever's going on from a place of frustration or lack or anger, I keep getting this message...just get quiet.
So, I've been getting quiet--even if that means just taking a really deep breath or going to my room for some breathing time or doing a guided meditation...I know the only way I can get to the truth is to quiet my busy mind. It has made all the difference, especially in the midst of not so pretty things.